Night Owl

I have been staying up until 1:00 a lot lately. It has been good, though.

Me and Courtney ran through the sprinklers last night. It was so much fun. I love those moments.

Please pray for me. Something is not good, and I can't quite put my finger on it... Those are the worst. :(

Do you ever feel...

like you have God all figured out?

I do that. A lot. I try to always be 2 steps ahead of Him, trying to predict His next move. I realize that this is totally the wrong way to live.

Sometimes I think I know what He's going to do next FOR me. Why do I do that? Maybe it is a lack of satisfaction? Trust? Both? I need to be rooted in Him with complete satisfaction. I need to trust that He can satisfy my every desire and need.

I have been struggling lately with this. Why can't I just accept His blessings and leave it that? Why do I always have to think there is more?

God,
Teach me to be content with what You have given me. Help me to not look to other things or people for this. I know that You are truth and that there is no other way. Help me to not worry about money, or clothes, or grades, but to completely know that it's in Your hands. To know it and live by knowing it. Not just half-know it. I can determine my steps, but You direct my path LORD. Thank You for adjusting my vision.
Love,
Krista

English! (and other things)

Guess what! I'm going to be an English Tutor... for COLLEGE STUDENTS! I'm excited, and I know you may think that I'm a nerd now, but guess what- I like it!

I really needed a second job, and this is just a huge blessing because not only is it- a) doing what I love (one of the things I love- English!), b) Opening up an opportunity to get to know more college students.... but I don't have to drive anywhere for this! It's an on campus job, and I am sooo excited!

I'm not going to quit babysitting- I love doing that :) I am not putting too much on my plate, either ;) The tutoring job also presents opportunities to do my own homework while I wait for people that need to be tutored!

Anyways, I thought I'd update y'all on that- it was a big deal to me today!

As far as other things are going, they are good. School is very easy this semester, but it's going to get harder. I planned this semester to be my easiest. :) I am enjoying apartment life more and more now, it's starting to become a lot more homey (is that how you spell that? is it even a word? I guess I should know this, being an English tutor and all).

FOCUS was awesome. Matt Chandler was our speaker, and God really used him. (He's going to be our speaker at Revival!!) It was about how as Christians, we shouldn't stay in our little Christian circles. That has been very convicting for me because I somehow assume that everyone here is a Christian, when some are not. How blind can I be? It really convicted me to engage more in conversations and invest in others, and accept people for who they are while showing them the love of the Lord. Another thing we talked about was just loving God. Not thinking we have to do certain things -don't get me wrong: reading, worship music- it's all important-but, our worship should flow into all of our lives, to where we have a true relationship with God and not just some act. An act only makes you think you are in tune with Him, when you are really just deceiving yourself. It's not about action, it's about heart. Now, I know that doing things is important, but it's all in vain if you don't know the Lord. I'm really excited about what the Lord has laid in my heart and it is my desire to live that every day. I don't want to just pass through life doing what a Christian does, but I want to BE it. To some that can be confusing, but think about it.

Anyways, I'm going to go study for my math test tomorrow!! Everyone have a great weekend!

~KQ

P.S.
Please continue to pray for my dad and his unit!

FOCUS

Please pray for myself, as well as the other students in Texas that are attending the Focus Conference ( http://www.focus2k6.org/ ). I know God will be present and I hope to learn something!
Thanks!

SO, about that cooking and baking...

Okay, maybe some of you more experienced cooks can answer my question...

I know in my last post I had a short ramble of my newly found hobby of baking and cooking. Now, "Shake 'N Bake" has to be one of the easiest things you can do, right? (Give me a break, I'm a college student, and I had to do it before my night class tonight ;) Well.. me and Brittany were baking our chicken drumsticks, covered with shake n' bake crumbs, and I opened it up, just to take a peek... Well, these drumsticks were GUSHING with blood. I'm sorry if that makes your stomach twist. Yes, it was disgusting.... but... it was disgusting. Not knowing what to do, I called my mom, and her suggestion was to cook them longer, because they obviously weren't done. Well, we did, got them out, they were still gushing. ;) What do we do? We cook them longer, meanwhile eating the sides: rice and corn. Well... we took them out, cut 'em open, and I thought they looked fine. So, I ate one, and avoided the gushing part... Let's hope I don't die tonight...

So, can anyone solve the bloody drumstick mystery? Did I do something wrong? I bought them at Wal-Mart, which could mean something... or was the chiken just bad?

Any suggestions?

Confused and wondering,
Anti-Bloody Chicken

How Things Are Going...

I think life is good.

I got my first ticket the other day. At first I was very angry, and bitter, but now I'm just taking it for what it is. (It was not a speeding ticket, I supposedly ran a stop sign :( ) I go to defensive driving with Rachel, because she got a ticket a while back, so we're going to Golden Corral and we get to eat while we take the class. Hey, that's nice!

Anyways... School has started and it has to be the easiest semester yet. I'm taking 15 hours and I have one night class. It's fun.

We are in our apartment and I cook and bake. It is amazing, let me tell you. To be able to cook your own food, that almost makes me a real adult!

Seriously, all I have after this is next year and then I'm a teacher. That's crazy. Hopefully these next couple years prepare me.

Well, I know this is boring.... so I think I am done. :)

Wonderful Things

Yes, wonderful.

We had our Children's Ministry meeting last Thursday, and it was a good turn out. We had about 10 students show that were interested. We went out to the apartments so they could meet the kids, and it was soooo good. The kids loved to see them, and I am so excited about this year.

3 of the kids accepted the Lord over the summer, and I am so happy! That was such good news. There is more to the story, too. Their mom, who is in prison right now, acceptedc the Lord was well- because her kids were so excited about God, and she wanted that.

Praise God!

5 things... :)

Stephanie tagged me, so here I go!

5 Things in my Freezer:
-Chicken Pot Pie
-Pizza
-Chicken Drumsticks
-Ice Cubes, they're so cool :)
-My roomie's Burritos


5 Things in my Closet:
-My stationary kit that has yet to be used.. anyone want a letter?
-Text books for classes
-An overabundance of shoes... there are way too many...
-Laundry
-My "quad blanket". It's pink and I use it when I go out to the quad to study...

5 Things in my Car:

-Air Freshener.. my car smells like a water fall.. yeah, I have no idea how that is a smell either ;)

-My sun visor

-My sunglasses :)

-Some CDs that I never stop listening to (Michael W. Smith- Healing Rain- get it, it's amazing)

-I have a bunch of bibls in my trunk. My roommate gave them to me for children's ministry. They are pretty good to have wherever you go.


5 Things in my Purse:

-Wallet
-Hand sanitizer
-A program for our children's choir (I never clean out my purse, even after I acknowledge that it's in there)
-My inhalor
-A TON of lip gloss... I've been like that ever since I was 13. :)


5 Things in my Diaper Bag:

Oh, Stephanie- I don't have kids! Although if I did, I'm sure it'd consist of diapers and bottles and clothes and other things that don't require commas. Hahaha... I guess I'll switch it to bookbag:

-Fancy calculator
-American History Book
-Notebooks
-My math folder
-A bunch of loose papers.. I'm sure I sound so organized right now :)

I tag:
Lauren
Rachel

375 Days

No, not a typo. My dad left today for another state, and will deprat from there to Kuwait in ten days. His orders are for a year.

I've learned that I have to make the choice to depend on God for my strength. I've learned that strength can't just happen, that I have to practice it. I have to practice it when I am comforting my mom, friends, and myself. I can't choose to think about all the negatives of this.

Already my mom and I have gotten closer. While sitting on the tailgate of our truck, we watched as their bus drove away into the distance. We cried, waved, and smiled. It's a mixture of feelings. I've always felt that deep sadness that you know will be there because he is not. But today I felt extremely proud of him. My dad has set such a great example in the past few years. He has proven to be a great dad, husband, and soldier. Seeing the look in the eyes of his soldiers as they look at him makes me feel so proud to be his daughter. So while I know he is in a dangerous land, I also know that he has a very good head on his shoulders, and men around him that learn from him. So while it may seem like a bad situation, and I am pretty much against this war, I know that God has a plan. He has a plan greater than I know. He is here with us.

I love you all. I ask that you please say a prayer for the 217th Trans. Co., as well as all of our soldiers. There are some amazing people among them.

10 years

My mom told me that I will be married within the next 10 years, I just don't know it yet.

I think she has "I Want Grandchildren Syndrome"...

Although, I would love for her prediction to be true...

Oh, the unknown. :)

So, so goofy.

So, I have to blog about this because it is one of the funniest things we have ever done with our pug, Khaki. If you haven't met him, he's a clown at heart. He has so much joy (it's contagious!) and I am such a proud "big sister".

Well, a long time ago, when Khaki was a puppy, we accidentally found a new toy for Khaki. He loved the waterbottle. You know, the classic, Evian, or Ozarka, kind. Well, he has such a blast with those. Well, today, for old times sake, my dad finished his waterbottle and threw it on the far end of the kitchen for Khaki to chase. Now, Khaki may be getting old, but there is nothing keeping him for his water bottles. He ran after it and began to do his normal routine and chew on it. Well... me, being me, saw our big half-gallon plastic clear jar. One that could look very similiar to a water bottle and have the same feel. I threw it on the ground and said that standard "Get it, Khaki!" and boy did he get so frustrated. He could not fit it in his mouth like the regular bottle and it was hilarious to watch!!! (If you are wondering about Edith, she is our girly one and watches on the sidelines.) I will have to upload video footage of our new joke on Khaki. It is quite the entertainment!

Ramblings

Just thought I'd post a pic of me and one of my girls from this summer. Her name is Sarah and she is such a sweetie. :) She is a daughter of the King and I am so glad that I got to share such a good camp experience with her. We had so much fun out there. There were times that were a bit overwhelming, but God got me through! I love summer :)

I guess it's kind of late. I just wanted to post a quick pic!

Yay!!

I get to see the Green family today!!!

And I'm getting my hair cut!

I think this calls for celebration!

*dance*

So, today was the "family picnic" for my dad's Army unit. It was held out at BLORA, and I wasn't expecting it to be too big of a hit....

I was driving through Ft. Hood for a good 30 minutes before I hit it, and I felt so bummed driving through the base. I like to think I'm not the type of person who lets her environment affect her mood, but wow, this place was DEAD (literally). All the grass, trees, and noise. It was like driving through a ghost town. So, of course I was being grumpy when my dad was giving my directions, and trying not to let him know by the sound of my voice. Eventually I got there, and all I could think about was how hot the sun felt against my skin. Yes, bad mood. Very big bad mood. But let me tell you... My dad hangs around some of the funniest guys in his platoon, and it was such a joy being around them. They actually had CLEAN jokes. Yes- ARMY guys!! It's pretty crazy. Plus, the fact that I got to be with my mom and dad really helped me out a lot. I am so thankful that we got to be together today. We ate some good bar-b-que and "chilled" (ironic word choice!). I spent almost the whole day with them and we shared many laughs. I love my family! :)

***totally different subject***

Earlier this week I had asked my friend, Lauren, to pray for me about an apartment ministry that God had laid on my heart. All summer long I have been struggling with whether or not God wanted me to continue my ministry out at Meadow Village (I had been so discouraged many times), but last Wednesday I felt so convicted to go against what I was feeling and continue working there. Needless to say I had decided to do it during the school year because I felt that God had been calling me to that. Well, I was going to tell Matt (the leader of this ministry) this morning at church, but he came up to me first. He told me that there was going to be no more of the Meadow Village ministry. I was in shock! Feeling very confused, I asked him why, and he said the new management was doubling the rent and we couldn't afford it anymore. :( So, at first I felt very confused as to why God had called me to that. Or if I had mistaken what He had been telling me? Later throughout the day it dawned on me that this could've been His test of obedience for me. Kind of like an Abraham and Isaac thing, you know? There have been times when I haven't been obedient, and I am so thankful that I was!

Please continue to be in prayer for the kids at Meadow Village apartments. This ministry has been there for many years past, and I don't know how this will affect them.

Blessings,
Krista Q.

Ramblings of Great Expectations...

Sometimes I feel like I can't put into words what my heart is feeling, but this song hits it pretty close:

Ginny Owens, Run to You

I used to see the world in black and white
Now I find myself lost in a fog of grey
I thought the good guys always won the fight
But I've learned life simply doesn't work that way
I once believed if I loved others they would love me, too
But I've seen this isn't always so
I thought that inner peace would come from trusting who I am,
But it's really about trusting who I know

So when the winds of change try to blow me over,
And the shadows of confusion hide the truth
I will hope in the One who is forever,
I will run to you
I will run to you

Ever since the moment life began
Humankind has tried to solve it's mysteries
So many things we cannot comprehend
So we draw conclusions that we can believe
Well, I know that your hands have placed the Earth upon the seas
And pitched a tent in the Heavens for the sun
The Author of the universe is the Father who loves me
So only one conlusion can be drawn

When I face the questions that seem to have no answers
And I know my friends are but a precious few
I will hope in the Love that never changes
I will run to you

Though the perils of life seem so great
And hope seems so frail
You never fail, no
Shadows may not disappear
But You've always made it clear
Truth will prevail
You will prevail

Responsible...

Yes, I think I am quite the responsible young lady :) I made myself a budget plan today. You may be thinking, "Krista, you don't make that much money, why do you have a budget plan?". Well, I have a budget plan because it motivates me to save. I made it on my computer today, and I am so proud of myself. Now I will be able to tell where my money goes, and better ways to spend it. There have been little things that have encouraged me to do this...

Ever since I was little my mom had a budget book, and I thought it was SOOO cool. Yeah, it's not that cool now, but I'm learning that it helps to have some sort of organizational habits when it comes to spending and saving money!

I read Blue Like Jazz a while back, and it had a chapter called money, and it really convicted me on tithing. Being a "poor college student" is no excuse to not do it.

Losing money, and not knowing where it went.... Yeah, that's definitely encouraged me to start saving it.

Buying a car when I graduate! Yes, I am going to.

Those are a few.

Countdown to school: 13 days! AHHHH. I'm excited and not all at the same time! :)

One more week!

Well, the summer is coming to an end and I have mixed feelings about it all. I just got back from "Lifecamp 2006" yesterday, and today I have just relaxed. The camp went very well. Our speaker was a guy named Blu, and he did a pretty good job. Outside of Camp Buckner, I had never been to a children's camp before, so I figured the sermons would be pretty watered down. Our theme was Joshua 1:9, which says "Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." I think I have looked at parts of my walk as basic things, when in all actuality they are very important! He compared God to being the captain of our lives, and that we need to talk to our captain so we know what's going on. He said that you can read your bible, and go to church, etc, but we HAVE to talk to our Captain. I have been journaling for quite a while now, but I have found that audibly talking to Him is so much better for my spirit. Don't get me wrong, I still journal, but there is something sweet about just 'talking' to Him.

The girls loved camp. They really listened when Blu talked, so I hope that something hit them when he preached. I had the opportunity to pray with one of my girls, and I really enjoyed it because when we were done she began to tell me that she knows God has been calling her away from the sin in her life and towards Him. It made everything all worth it. I was pretty drained when I got home. I never thought I'd hear "Miss Krista" so many times in a role, but it was also fun being there for them. For them to be able to turn to me was a great feeling.

Being in the position I am in really makes me want to be a better disciple. I have been so convicted of that. When I tell these girls more about reading their Bible everyday, and prayer life, and being a good Christian, it allows me to reexamine my own life. I am so thankful for that. I am praying to become closer to my God. Nothing else in this world matters, and I am constantly learning that. He is my rock and my salvation, I will only turn to Him.

I hope you are all enjoying the summer. Please e-mail or call me and update me on your lives as well! I look forward to hearing about it. :)
Love y'all!

Dots and Stars don't matter here

Have you read 'You Are Special' by Max Lucado?

...I read it today for Backyard Bible Club in my class, and it was a hit! The kids really understood the message, and I even had a 4 year old say, "Jesus made us!". It was just one of the coolest things because these kids are getting it.

God is so good.

At the tip of my fingers...

So, I had gone to the library this morning, hoping to check out some books. 3 books I had in my hand, either because I hadn't read them completely, or I had them reccomended to me:

The Attributes of God: A Journey into a Father's Heart, by A.W. Tozer

The Holiness of God by R.C. Sproul

and The Secret Message of Jesus : Uncovering the Truth that Could Change Everything by Brian McLaren

It was such a letdown when I got to the check-out counter and the librarian told me I needed my I.D. card. :( My card is in San Antonio.

Basically, I was upset.. I really wnted to read some good books...

Anyone read these books before?

Oh, wonderful :)

So things are going good with children's ministry right now. Our backyard bible club went really well. We had 3 kids show up from the apartments, and 5 of our normal faces. They were all so great! They were so into bible study, and arts and crafts. They conversed with eachother like they knew eachother their whole lives. It was neat to see kids do that. We go to the zoo in Waco on Tuesday, and Thursday is the backyard bible club again. I'm excited!

It is hard for me to believe that I only have a few more weeks here and then school starts up again. It's funny because I can't really say that I want to move in and all. I mean, it will be exciting to be living in our apartment, but I am enjoying this summer so much. I miss the atmosphere with all my friends around, but I love having what feels like a real job and having fun doing it. One thing I love about being on church staff is that while we do work, we also have fun, consider eachother's feelings, keep up with eachother's lives, and seek authenticity. I'm enjoying that. You know how you can feel one way, and try to cover it up? Yeah, that is not easy to do now, and I am sooo thankful for it. The people I work with really care, pastor, ministers, interns, secretary, they all care. And I care for them as well. I don't believe that them being ministers, and on the church staff, gives reason for this authentic atmosphere. I believe it is because each one is seeking God and seeking to engage in other's lives. Now, I'm not trying to say it's perfect, but it is that seeking for Him in our lives that makes it so joyful.

I am learning and growing, and I am enjoying it.

I hope you are all doing great!!

God Bless

Good news :)

Yay for my dad having a 4 day pass!

Today I picked my dad up at Ft. Hood and it was so nice to see him! We drove back to San Antonio along with one of his soldiers. Ask me about a prayer that is being answered, and we'll talk. I'm so excited for my dad to just relax and take a breather these next couple days. It is so good to see him and my mom together!

Just thought I'd update while I could.

Quick updates:

VBS week is over- crazy! It was fun, hectic, hard, and rewarding all at the same time. I loved it!

Backyard Bible Club starts Thursday! Please pray that this goes well! I am the coordinator, which is a huge responsibility!

School starts in a month 1/2. I don't really want it to... I'm enjoying my job right now!

I hope y'all are doing great!

Super Babysitter

So, Nathan, the adorable 3 year old I babysit, apparently thinks I am Miss Super Babysitter. His mom and I were talking tonight, and she told me of a conversation they had during their Louisiana trip this week.

Nathan: Can we go see Miss Amy and her baby?

Mommy Rachel: No, Miss Amy is working right now.

Nathan: Oh... is Miss Krista watching him?

Mommy Rachel: No Nathan, Miss Krista only watches you and Anna!

Oh, the way kids look at you. In Nathan's eyes, I take care of all the babies. How cute!

Only Hope

Oh how seet, to have rest and hope in Him. The words to this song are beautiful.

"Only Hope"

[Written by Switchfoot]

There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But You sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
and pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars
Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

I give You my destiny
I'm giving You all of me
I want Your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

Trust in the Lord

I understand that God teaches me something through every trial. That He is constantly pruning me so that I will bear more fruit. (John 15) I re-read that passage today and it was kinf of reassuring that whatever I'm going through right now is going to help me more than harm me, because God is for me.

"I am the true vine, and my Father is the vinedresser. Every branch of mine that does not bear fruit he takes away, and every branch that does bear fruit he prunes, that it may bear more fruit. Already you are clean because of the word that I have spoken to you. Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit by itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in me. I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing."

Oh what a wonderful Comforter I have. He is building my faith to be stronger. And I need that. I am thankful for the friend He gave me to talk to today, for the people in my life that care about me when I am attacked. I am thankful for the smiling faces of the little kids I love to be around.

After work today, I went to Ian's little league game and sat with Christie for a while. We were just watching the game, and I turned around to help Rachel find her ladybug, when all of a sudden I hear a unusual spitting noise coming from Christie, and then all of a sudden, I feel cold water all over the left side of my face. Now, if you know me, you know that I thought this was very disgusting. But how could I tell Christie this when she was already embarrased enough? Well, we had a good laugh about it.

Anyways, I hope you are all doing good. Also, thanks for reading my previous entry and being so understanding. I love you all!

Oh, gee.

These past couple days for me have been rough. I won't let you know it if I'm talking to you, but for some reason, I'm an open book right now. Isn't it funny how I would feel awkward saying anything but "Good" when you ask me "How are you?".

I think I am just being attacked right now. I haven't been feeling like myself at all. I feel like nothing in my life is going right, and I am feeling dissatisfied with myself. And then it's like my emotions are a light that can just be turned off and on. In front of people, I a very good at turning them off. In fact, I am very good at ignoring the fact that there's even a light to turn on. For some reason though, something inside me desperately wants to turn that light on and place everything out for everyone to see. No more hiding.

I don't know if it has been the empty conversations that I have had with my parents, or if it has been the constant thought that I am not good at anything I attempt- my job, my friendships. Yes, I know this is a lie, and yet while knowing these are all lies, part of me still believs it, and I hate that.

We are doing that study on the book Captivating, and while I really don't agree with a lot of what that book has to say, the discussions that we had on it tonight just really hit me. I cried, but didn't say anything. How could I say anything when I have been ignoring it for it's whole existence? I've noticed that I have been doing this with a lot of the discomforts in my life. I know they are there, and I ignore them, thinking that if I don't acknowledge them, they will somehow vanish. Really, all I am doing is hurting myself. I am hardening my heart, and not bringing these things to the Lord.

I have lost something in myself, and it hurts. It feels like I can't turn to anyone, even if they had their arms opened right in front of me. My heart has been trained to keep it all in and can't even recognize a shoulder to lean on when it is there. I feel as if a friend is standing there trying to help me, and I am too weak to even reach out for their help.

Please pray for me. There are just a lot of things that have led to confusion, hurt, and sadness- and I don't know what to do.

Who knew?

So, between my last post and now, many things have changed in my life. They may not be significant to you, but they are to me, so I will blog about them :)

Ever since I've moved to Belton, I started my internship and it has been a blast. I've gotten to know the kids a lot more, and I've been planning many events for them. It has been so fun! We are doing so many thing this summer.. including a ZOO trip! I am very excited about that one ;)

I have also taken up running again. I've been running one mile almost every morning at 7:00. Who knew I could get up that early, much less to go running?! It has really been fun though. The neighborhood is just so peaceful and breezy, it makes me want to run. I hope I can keep that habit throughout the year, because it's a good one to have!

I have had a blast so far. Yesterday I came home for my mom's birthday and I'm about to drive back to Belton. Today is my day off, so I am not very worried about getting there on time.

Thursday is Rachel's birthday party and we all get to dress up and go out. I got this really cute dress, I feel like I live in the 50s or 60s- it's very cute. I will have to take pictures of all of us.

It's hard for me to believe that it's summer. During the school year, it felt as if school would never end. Luckily, it did. I was getting worn out after a while! Auguest 7th I'll come back to SA and on the 16th I will move into our APARTMENT!! Complete with our own washer and dryer and a dishwasher. That will make life a little easier!! I'm so excited. I already have my comforter set for the next year :)

I know you want to see a picture, too ;)

I'm going to place the orange one as the comforter, with the patterned one folded in a rectangle at the bottom. If you're my roommate, you'll understand :)


This one is actually bright orange, not green. :)


Okay, that is all I have to say for now! Everyone have a good week!

Love,
Krista

On the Road Again

I'm going back to Belton tomorrow! :) Please pray for me (and my family) as I do my Children's Ministry Internship this summer!

What is in a name?

So I was curious and I looked up the meaning of my name on babynames.com

Krista means Christ Bearer and Michelle means Who is like God?. I think I have a pretty awesome name. I really like my name because it presents a challenge to myself. Christ bearer, to me, meaning I support Christ, I am for Christ. And then Michelle presents the question "Who is like God?". That is a challenge, a challenge for me to strive to be more of a light in the world. It makes me want to get to know Him even more. I support Christ, and I want to be like Him.

Krista Michelle :)

Temporary Hiatus

So I've decided I want to spend less time on the CPU for a couple weeks, maybe longer. I will only be checking e-mails and stuff, and occasionaly writing in my blog. I will not be on and form of instant messenger. You can definitely call me though, because I appreciate those much more than e-mails and computer messages. I will post on here every now and then to keep everyone updated.

Love you all!

////A few pics from the wedding of my beautiful friend, Lauren:











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Oh, sigh..

I told myself I wasn't going to get online tonight, but here I am.

I simply want to ask for a prayer request. It goes along with my last. My dad leaves on Monday, and we are not taking it in the best way. It is really, very hard. It gets harder every time.

Please pray for me. I am going to need strength in all of this, dealing with the circumstances and my constant frustrations with the Army. I need to understand the picture consistently. I need to stop wondering what God is doing and just go with it.

...I really want to stop being sad.
You don't need to give advice. I just need a prayer and a hug or two.

I'm a bridesmaid :)

This Friday, my good friend, Lauren Bellamy, will become Lauren Bohannon. I am so excited to attend the first wedding of our circle of friends. I can't wait!

Thursday is the rehearsal dinner and then we will all spend the night in a hotel together (the bridesmaids). I can't wait because this is such an incredible, memorable time for Lauren, and I'm so glad to be a part of it.

I love you girls!

(all of the bridesmaids, minus Ashley, whom I've yet to meet!)

Why is there an S in "Lisp"?

So, my mom came to pick me up from Belton today and I am now in San Antonio! I promise you, it was a very hard semester for a number of reasons, and it is so good to say it is over! I think it's a good thing that my GPA is the same exact way it was before I started this semester. As long as I don't go below it, I'll be fine! A huge accomplishemnt from this semester- I finished my minor in Religion! That is encouraging-It is possible!

So after our drive down here, I had an orthodontist appointment, and I am now Kritha Quinn, girl with the lithp (otherwise known as girl with the lisp). I've already been made fun of by my parents (all in love, of course :) ) and I have even made fun of myself. I think it's funny, but I still hope it will go away soon.

I watched Pride & Prejudice for the 3rd time today. So good, so good.

Prayer, please?

Can I ask those of you who read this to pray for me, please? I have been sooo distracted this week. It's funny that I think this is a good distraction, well, I know it is. I am SO excited about this summer, sharing the gospel with more kids this summer, and trying to live for Him more. I try to sit here at school and study and for some reason, I just don't get as excited about that (sense the sarcasm?). Please pray that I would glorify God in all things, even through studying. I have to finish the semester out strong, but I am not going to lie- it is so hard when I know this summer will be amazing!!

Love y'all!

I Am Blessed

I had a very moving hour tonight. I've noticed that I have decreased in the amount of time I reflect on my life. I haven't stopped and just thought about the relationships that are being built each day. Tonight, at our small group meeting, I cried for a good 20 minutes, and if you know me... it is very hard for me to start crying in front of people I don't know. But you know something? I found that I do know the people I cried with tonight. It was a good cry, too.

We used to play "Hot Seat" in our youth group (Steph, you remember this). It was one of my favorite things that we did because it forced us to a) recognize the goodness in the relationships that have been built, and b) bring ourselves to understand what others truly feel about us. It can be a very moving moment, especially if you doubt that you have had an impact. Well, I just joined MLC this past semester. To be honest, I was scared when I joined. I was scared of being the new girl because I'm shy enough as it is. Well tonight we played "Hot Seat" and it was so wonderful. I enjoyed hearing what people had to say about me, but I loved finding out what I thought was admirable in others. I never really stop and say "This person is so ____" It's kind of a subconscious thing. I want to "stop and smell the roses". I value friendships so much but I never actually tell the people I value how much I value them. I've noticed I can be a bit protective of my thoughts. Things have changed, and I want to fix them. I want to be forward with people and let them know the impact they have in my life. "Carpe Diem". It's funny that I forget most of the things people say they admire in me, but I remember what I say to others. I love my friends. We all influence eachother (in good ways) and I love it. I love the fact that we all love Jesus and can share what He is teaching us. I am excited about next year and seeing where God leads us all. I'm excited that His hand is upon all this, and He finds each one of us as admirable. I strive to be that for Him everyday, and I just want to feel Him smiling upon me.

We are truly blessed.

One of the best movies ever..

So after surprising Lauren for her bridal shower, we watched what is now one of my favorite movies. I think I can watch it over and over again. I'm planning on reading the book this summer. Can you guess what it is? Pride and Prejudice. It was such a great movie, but I'd have to say that my favorite scene was the last one. It was the most romantic thing I have ever seen. I strongly suggest you seeing this movie if you have not. It is great!

Mr. Darcy: "And how are you this evening, my dear?"

Elizabeth: "Very well, only I wish you would not call me 'my dear', For that is what my Father calls my Mother when he is cross at her.”

Mr. Darcy: "Ahh, and so then what should I call you?"

Elizabeth : “Well let me think. Lizzy for everyday, my pearl for Sundays, and my divine goddess for every other day."

Mr. Darcy (laughing): "And what am I to call you when I'm cross? Mrs. Darcy?

Elizabeth: "No, you may only call me Mrs. Darcy when you're completely,perfectly and incandesantly happy."

Mr. Darcy: "And how are you this evening, Mrs. Darcy?"

Mr. Darcy: Mrs. Darcy...(kisses her left cheek)

Mr. Darcy: Mrs. Darcy...(kisses her nose)

Mr. Darcy: Mrs. Darcy...(kisses her right cheek)

Mr. Darcy: Mrs... (kisses her on the mouth)

The Old Days

Awww, so I DO miss the drumline every once in a while. My friend Tamara sent me a picture of me and my friend Nick when we were about to perform. I think this was during our break:



I don't even remember this! It is so cute though. I kind of miss those moments!

Wow!

I can't believe there is only 1 week of classes left and then FINALS! This is crazy! It has been a good past couple of days. I've been pretty on top of things, I think. I haven't slept through any classes, but I have come pretty close. Yay for my talents of waking up just in time! I also completed my 10 page paper of John Donne for English over the weekend. Now, my only task before FINALS is to complete a paper in Baptist History over Fundamentalists and Moderates. I'm actually, not too worried about it! Tomorrow is PLAY DAY which gives me plenty of time to work on it.

I'm pretty excited about going home for a month before I start my new job as the Children's Intern this summer. 2 weekends will be weddings for two people in my life that I treasure so much. I am so happy for them, the time is drawing near! Wow, crazy stuff there.

Finals should be good. After this Friday, I'll be studying it up for Doc Martin's Exam. I have to make a good grade! So hopefully my study techniques are better!

I hope everyone is doing good. I love all of ya'll!

I'll leave ya'll with a verse that's been on my heart lately:
"You shall be holy, for I am holy." -1 Peter 1:16

Invisible Children

Okay, so I really want to do this. I'm pretty sure my parents are absolutely against me going alone. Has anyone heard of the invisible children? This is important. If you have not heard of them, go to www.invisiblechildren.com . Their voices need to be heard. After you do that, click this. If you want to do this, comment. Even if I don't know you. I want to go to Waco and help. Anyone? Please respond before April 29th. Atleast 3 days in advance. Thanks! Even if you can't go to Waco, this opportunity is happening in a lot of places!

A False Idea

So, going to the school I go to, there are always engagements and the such going on. And yes, if you know me, you know I try my best to remain as strong as I can and be happy for everyone, yet I still wonder when "my time" (doesn't that sound selfish, in the grand scheme of things?) will come. Well, I've heard many girls say that once you've reached that point in your relationship with God where you just love Him so deeply, then He will bring "that person" into your life. Pardon me, but this is NOT TRUE! And I'm not saying this to be bitter, but to cast out that dumb belief. This idea makes girls feel as if they are not truly loving the Lord! I see a TON of friends around me that are unattached and have such a deep passion for the Lord! We love the Lord with all our hearts, and people want to say "Oh, when you truly love the Lord, you'll meet him." Okay, what about those that are called to singleness? What about those that become Christians after they are married? True, everything is in God's plan, and He does have a time for everything, but it is not true that He brings a partner into our lives once we have "truly loved Him". We have been talking a lot about marriage and singleness in my class, "The Early Pauline Epistles", because we are currently studying Corinthians. Not to offend any of you married couples out there, I know your relationship is built on Christ. Paul says in 1 Corinthians 7:32-35:
"I want you to be free from anxieties. The unmarried man is anxious about the things of the Lord, how to please the Lord. But the married man is anxious about worldly things how to please his wife, and his interests are divided. And the unmarried and betrothed woman is anxious about the things of the Lord, how to be holy in body and spirit. But the married woman is anxious about wordly things, how to please her husband. I say this for your own benefit, not to lay any restraint upon you, but to promote good order and to secure your undivided devotion to the Lord."

Okay, so the whole idea that God brings that "special someone" into our lives when we fully love the Lord- no! Why would God say, "Okay, you "fully" love me, let me present this one in your life so that your love for me may be divided." Being married is awesome, from what I hear. It is a gift from God and it should be based on God. But I disagree with the idea floating around in everyone's heads that we are not on fire for the Lord if we are still single. If anything, when we are single, we are loving the Lord with all our hearts, our souls, and our minds. All of it. So, please take this idea out of your head, girls. God will bring this "special someone" into your life if that is in His will. This magical formula: Being passionate about God and loving Him = Finding my soulmate, brings room for false motives. There is no magic formula. God examines our hearts. So, lets cast this idea out!

Randomness

Does anyone have any good recommendations for books on Apologetics? I specifically want to read one on the authority of the Bible, as I have a friend who is a Christian and doesn't think the Bible is authoratative. I looked on Amazon.com and so far I am looking into R.C. Sproul's Defending the Faith.

Anyhoo. Lots of things running through my mind. Going to go read though, and catch up on those Z's....

Oh yeah, and go here :)

:) Good news/suspense

So, I won't find out until the 30th, but there is possibly some very good news concerning Children's Ministry. I don't want to say it on here unless it comes true, but ah- don't you love the suspense?! Haha, if I have to wait, so do you readers of the blog. :)

Haha, and yes, that's all this post was about ;)

"My Brain Hurts!!!"

Man, oh man. It has been a good weekend. My children's ministry kids are going to be in the Easter Pageant, so I started off the day by pickign them up for practice. Then, I went garage sale-ing with Amy, and I got a beautiful quilt for $2.00!! Yes, I know, we are good. Then, I came back to school, picked the kids up and dropped them off, and then I left with Amy to look at her new house. Her and a couple other girls are renting a house starting in May and it was very exciting to see!! I think it will be fun because we are all really growing up. Some of us in apartments, and then some of us in a house!! That's pretty insane.

I came back to the dorm and then left to go babysit. It was an interesting night. Anna just got taken of the pacifier so she was a bit antsy. It took her a while to fall asleep. Nathan was just so funny last night. I knew he would end up stalling before bedtime, because he does that every night. Well, last night was no different, but I loved what he tried to pull with me. He got up to use the restroom and I knew he didn't have to go, but I let him anyways. Then as he was getting in bed, he says "Miss Krista, I feel so bad, I feel sooo bad." "Oh? What's wrong Nathan??" "My... my.. my brain hurts..." At this point I almost laugehd out lout but I knew that would crush him so I played along and said "I'm sure your brain won't hurt if you go to sleep!" and he gave me this very adult look like "I really don't want to go to bed!" It was really funny, but finally, after a lot of talking, he went to sleep. I then started on some homework and then fell asleep. They always told me I could go to sleep, but I never actually have. Well, they came home at one, and I didn't hear them walk in, so when she said my name to wake me, I jumped and was very scared. There's something about sleeping in a place you don't normally sleep. It was really funny and scary, but then I left for home.

It was an interesting Saturday! I hope yours was, too!

Crazy Feelings

Hey everyone,

I gave ya'll the URL to this blog because I knew ya'll, so I'm going to let ya'll know how I have been feeling lately.

God has been so good to me. He has given me a great family and great friends. He has reminded me of his love daily. The last couple days have been kind of hard for me though. As I think all of ya'll know, my dad is going back overseas soon. I have been blocking my emotions to this for some time because I can get extremely upset sand sad about it. I can't say that that has helped. Today was my dad's last day at his civilian job, and thought brought the reality home. I can't tell you how much this stinks. And I know that no matter how I feel about this situation, it will never change. Please pray for me and my family though. It is one of the hardest things anyone can experience. It feels like a big gamble on someone's life when they go "over there". Please pray that my dad is wrapped in God's arms and that he feels the comfort that comes from the Father. Please pray that all of his unit is protected as they go on missions. Please pray that they will all see Christ through all of this. Please pray that the families back at home are comforted also and that we will remember that this is all in the Lord's hands, and not turn our hearts cold to Him. It's very easy to lose sight of Him in the midst of this. Please pray that we will all encourage eachother and be joyful even through this. Please pray that we will love eachother and encourage one another.

It has been hurting me lately to think about it. I don't want to hurt anymore.

He is always there...

God has been speaking to me lately in ways that I love. He knows what I love, and He makes me feel like I matter to Him and that I am His beloved. I usually struggle with letting my busy time consume my life! In the midst of the business of the day, I often do not spend time with the Lord. I totally lose my focus when I get stressed and overwhelmed. Lately, God has been teaching me so much more and how to get past those overwhelming moments. I know a lot of us probably have what feels like hectic schedules. If so, I hope this encourages you.
God knows that I love the "simple" things in life, like seeing a butterfly, or a squirrel. Seriously, those are amazing things to see throughout the day! God has been placing them in my path so much lately, and everytime I see one, I am reminded of His constant presence and love for me. He is so evident in everything around us.
I love the Psalms. One that really just hit things right on target for me is Psalm 103. Here it is:
"Bless the LORD, O my soul, and all that is within me, bless his holy name! Bless the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits, who forgives all your iniquity, who heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit, who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy, who satisfies you with good so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's. The LORD works righteousness and justice for all who are oppressed. He made known his ways to Moses, his acts to the people of Israel. The LORD is merciful and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love. He will not always chide, nor will he keep his anger forever. He does not deal with us according to our sins, nor repay us according to our iniquities. For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his steadfast love toward those who fear him; as far as the east is from the west, so far does he remove our transgressions from us. As a father shows compassion to his children, so the LORD shows compassion to those who fear him. For he knows our frame; he remembers that we are dust. As for man, his days are like grass; he flourishes like a flower of the field; for the wind passes over it, and it is gone, and its place knows it no more. But the steadfast love of the LORD is everlasting on those who fear him, and his righteousness to children's children, to those who keep his covenant and remember to do his commandments. The LORD has established his throne in the heavens, and his kingdom rules over all. Bless the LORD, O you his angels, you mighty ones who do his word, obeying the voice of his word! Bless the LORD all his hosts, his ministers, who do his will! Bless the LORD, all his works, in all places of his dominion. Bless the LORD, O my soul!"

Crawfish!!

Today was a PACKED day!

It was busy, but very fun!
First I had classes, which was fun, and then I had lunch and I also met with Cat @ 1. After that I came back and cleaned up for room check, and then I left to get advised. That was fun. Here are my classes for next semester:

-American History to 1877
-Systems of Math
-Storytelling (FUN!) I get to go read to kids and get graded for it!
-Intermediate Spanish
-Classroom Technology
-Chapel (my last semester)

That's a total of 15 hours! Thursdays will be long days. I have my first 8:00 class on TTh, and Thursday nights I have a night class! Time management is definitely going to be something to grasp even more!

After I got advised, I went to go babysit for 2 hours. It was fun because I got to read to Nathan the whole time! Then I left for Awanas, and after that, I came back for CRAWFISH! That's right, the couple I babysit for (Rachel & Eddy) are both from Louisiana (they met at LSU) and they were having a Crawfish Bowl. I was quite scared of eating it, because it looked so different than "regular" sea food... It was one of the best things ever! There was about 20 of us surrounding a table in the backyard, eating crawfish, corn, potatoes, and garlic! It was pretty neat. I was surrounded by a ton of doctors at Scott & White. It was interesting to hear them talk about surgeries, and how they do what they do!

I think I will leave ya'll with a picture that looks very similiar to what we did tonight :)

Don't you love thunder??

I do. I was sleeping so well last night, and I'm pretty sure it's because of the storm outside. It was this big thunder that jolted almost all of us girls awake, and then I fell right back to sleep. It was great! And now it's all sunny outside! So pretty!

I like it when it's sunny because it gives me a reason to wear my green capris. They're pretty much my favorite :)

...

There are no words.

I've been tagged.

I've been tagged by Courtney to do this survey type thingy. :)

Four Jobs I've Had:
1. Immanuel Baptist Daycare
2. Camp Bucky-Buck Counselor
3. Babysitter
4. Telemarketer (I know, I know...)

Four Movies I Can Watch Over and Over:
1. Napoleon Dynamite - Heck yes! (haha really dumb movie, but the most quoted)
2. Chronicles of Narnia
3. Ever After
4. Romeo and Juliet (newest version with Leonardo DiCaprio)

Four Places I've Lived:
1. Germany
2. Kentucky
3. Georgia
4. Texas

Four Shows I Like to Watch:
1. A Wedding Story
2. Trading Spaces
3. Grey's Anatomy (and other health shows)
4. Gilmore Girls (when it used to be good)

Four Restaurants That I Like:
1. Papa Dantes
2. Cracker Barrell
3. The Little Bavarian (as much as I worked there, I still like the food!)
4. Cool Bean (not so much eating, but studying there, on the big leather couch)

Four Websites I Visit Daily:
1. Yahoo Mail
2. Facebook
3. Blogger
4. Shawn and Kate McDonald's Blog

Four Things I Want to Do Before I Die:
1. Go on a mission trip for more than a week in the states or overseas
2. Go to Greece
3. Work in a church, hopefully as a Children's Director OR
4. Work at a camp for more than a summer (possibly camp director??)

People I'm Tagging to do this:
Um... Stephanie Green!, Rachel!, anyone else that wishes to do this :)

Hidden Blessings

I am such a happy girl, and I should be all the time. I'm sitting here listening to a beautiful piece called "Song of the Black Swan" on Cello by Steven Isserlis. It sounds very beautiful :) Have I ever mentioned that I have always had a desire to play the Cello? I am actually seriously considering taking Cello lessons. :) Music is definitely a gift from the Lord.

God has brought a conviction upon my heart, and it is great. I always feel like a victim of lost time. I don't know where I got this feeling, because I have tons of time. I wake up pretty late for my classes, and I surf online at what has to be an hour a day, and I even watch my favorite show each week. Well, I have SO much time, you see? Tonight at FOCUS, Chase wrapped up the Song of Solomon study with a sermon on singleness. I walked away with so much conviction. He pointed out 3 questions to ask yourself as a single (and I'm sure they can apply if you are married as well):

1. What do you do with your time?
2. What do you do with your money?
3. Where do you go?

The time thing really stuck out to me because it was like God confirming what He has been telling me all week.

He pointed out that our time we use playing games, watching TV, etc. can and should be replaced with meditating on Scripture and cultivating relationship with God and others. How true is this?! I am SO guilty of complaining that I have no time for God or to go out with friends because I don't have enough time because I'm too busy doing insert whatever here. He also mentioned that we take this time in our single lives for granted, because if we one day get married, we will have jobs that take up time, and probably kids that wake up very early. Then it will definitely feel like we have no time if we aren't good stewards of our time right now.

I sit here and ponder how I can make my life better, and I plan on starting tomorrow. I want to use my time for Him and not myself. I feel the urge to search for those hidden blessings in my time. I cover up blessings of opportunity with activities that I don't even need to be doing!

It is OVER!

So... the test is over!!! Oh my goodness! I don't think I have ever stressed out so much over ONE test!!

Last night Lauren and I studied at Cool Bean and studied more when we came home. It felt like too much to handle! We went in this morning, and Dr. Martin says that he lost the original exam and had to make a completely different one. Was this a good thing? Well, the test was downsized from 90 to 50 questions, and it also included no essay. This was a good thing and a bad thing. I feel that if all 90 questions were the way these 50 were, I would've been panicky. These questions were so broad, and they could've gone in many directions. So... I think we get our test back on Thursday, and I will update all of you on the status of my grade then!

Tomorrow is my last test for the week in Spanish. I think after my English class today I am going to take a nap and then study. I feel like a need some sort of a break!

Okay, I know that my studies aren't that interesting, but this is my life right now. :) I could tell you certain funny moments that arise when we study. This morning I started using my Elmo voice when I was studying. It made for some laughter. :)

26 down, 16 to go...

"By the time you graduate you'll be a pro at studying!" - Mom

My mom said this to me today because I have been studying a lot lately. The only thing is, I haven't been doing so much studying as I have copying. I've been copying my notes from laptop to computer, and let me tell you, 16 more pages to go seems a lot better than before! I'm not going to lie, I have been dreading this for a while. I mean- who studies on their Spring Break? Seriously, I'd really like to know how all of the Theology majors do it. We had a vote on our last class if we shoudl take the test before or after Spring Break. Everyone said after. At the time, I was all for it. Who wouldn't want to avoid one of the hardest exams ever? I sure did. And now I'm like... "Noooooooo. I don't want to!" Basically, I have been acting like a child. Please pray for me as I take on this task! (and also for Lauren, she's been in Mexico all week and doesn't have as much time as I do!) I know I can do it. I know I can! So, than kyou for reading this!

This is a message brought to you by... Krista Mighty Q!

Oh, Spring Break :)

I really do love Spring Break. I love not being so busy all of the time.

Yesterday was a good first day of Spring Break. I went to the salon and got my haircut. Don't worry, ya'll. It's not a dramatic change, but it was needed. Now my hair is just below my shoulders and I am happy with it. It flips out with the layers, and I love the length. Not that many of ya'll care about my hair or anything, but I will have to post a picture later on.

Rachel and her mom are coming to San Antonio today and we are going to go eat at the Cracker Barrel, only the best restaurant ever. When I grow up, I will eat there a lot more. :) I'm actually thinking of trying one of their salads today. For some reason, I'm in the mood for a salad. (If you know me you know that is definitely different)

Well, I think I am going to go clean up my room. It is a bit cluttered. Clutter is bad!

God is for us...

at all times.

I just got home from the Spurs game against the Lakers. It was so awesome going to my first NBA game! I loved it. I was cheering pretty hard-core. We did lose to LA, but I'd have to say the biggest treat was seeing the sportsmanship of our Spurs, and hearing Bruce Bowen give his testimony after that game. It was the 18th Annual Friday Fellowship, and Bruce Bowen and Max Lucado both spoke. The Afters also played, and I found a likening to their music. It was a good message on how God is FOR us.

Last week was probably one of my worst weeks ever at college. I think I had given in to the stress of due dates and studying for exams, and the worrying that is a constant of mine. How is it that I lose sight of the very One I love? I did that last week, and again, God is still there for me. I am so blessed to be loved by Him. I can't name anyone else who would put up with me for so long. And isn't it great how He has the most perfect timing? How He knows what He gives us, we'll be able to handle? (I forget that sometimes) I love that He plans things so well.

I drove home today and when I pulled in the driveway, it was just one of those moments. There is really no place like home. I don't get as homesick as I used to, but I do however think more about home when I have breaks coming up. It's a huge anticipation. Well, I drove in today and just thought how this is it. This is the place I was so eager to leave in High School and yet still holds a special place in my heart. There's something about being greeted by 2 loveable pugs with such warm smiles, and being hugged by my parents. I love the connection you have with people that have known you for your whole life. I value family so much.

I need to stop thinking about the "Who can be against me?" question, and start remembering that God is for me, at that very moment. I need to remember that God pulls me through every hardship and every trial. I can't respond in a way that makes me feel worse about a situation. I think when I begin to realize more that God will pull me through at that moment, I will be able to realize that God is for me.

Tired

Seriously, girls can be so mean, myself included. Without going into much detail, there have been a few "mean girl" encounters lately, and it's not fun. :(

I'm surviving. Trying to keep my head on straight, because if you know me well enough, you know that I think too much. But, better too much than too little, right? I'm excited about Spring Break, to go home to the people I can tell almost everything to. School has been reminding me of that lately. I've realized that I don't have a lot of faith in people, and I wish I did, but at the same time, I don't. I need someone to challenge me right now. Accountability. Consistency. I've been messing up a lot lately in many areas in my life. Maybe I'm "too hard on myself", but I doubt it. Inadequacy in every area, never good enough. People fail us all, though.

I'm tired, and drained, and fearful right now.

Blue Like Jazz

Has anyone ever read, or heard of, Blue Like Jazz, by Donald Miller? This morning Lauren and I went to some garage sales after Tamara left, and we ended up at Antioch's garage sale which is being held to raise money for their Juarez trip over Spring Break. Well, I knew I would find something being that I knew some of these people. Well, I found Blue Like Jazz, and I'm excited about reading it. People at camp always said good things about Donald Miller, and so I am excited to see what it's all about. I read a chapter from it today, and while it doesn't have many scripture references, it shows the realness of his heart and desire to truly love God, and I think that's what a lot of authors do not do. They simply aren't real, and that's what everyone wants. We want to say "Yeah, I've been there", or "I'm growing through that right now". I will tell ya'll what I think of the book when I'm done reading it, but so far, I have enjoyed it!
:)

Mr. Tumnus!!

So, Preview Weekend was this weekend and it was so much fun! My student was Tamara, and she told me she definitely wants to come here, and I was so glad to be a part of that decision! Last night after we ate we went to the Bebo Norman concert in the chapel, and then we watched the Chronicles of Narnia out at the ruins! Oh man, it was so amazing, again. They even went so far as to put a lamp post just like the one in the movie outside! When I first saw it, I seriously thought it was a game, like a, UMHB turned Narnia game! IT WAS SOOO AWESOME!

Besides Aslan, my favorite character from the movie and the book is Mr.Tumnus. I think he is so funny!

This is one of my favorite parts of the movie:

Lucy: Pleased to meet you, Mr. Tumnus! I'm Lucy Pevensie. *extends hand*... Oh, you shake it.

Tumnus: Um…why?

Lucy: I-I don't know! People do it when they meet each other.

(Tumnus shakes her hand left to right)

Tumnus: Well, Lucy Pevensie from the shining city of War Drobe in the wonderous land of Spare Oom, how would it be if you came and had tea with me?

Have a great weekend and God Bless!

Tiger!

I bought a fish tonight. Her name is Tiger and she is a striped Betta. Courtney and I wanted to do something spontaneous and so we went to Dollar Tree and Wal-Mart in search of that. I eneded up with Tiger! She is very spunky and full of life!

I just got back from a walk with Lauren. We walked all around campus and it was nice. I get so scared of walking alone on campus and so I am glad she suggested it.

In other news, I am a little worn out. I love school so much, and I know God has me here for a reason, but I really need that little break. It has been extra hard lately with the death of a sister in Christ (I never knew a death of someone you didn't know could affect you so much), my roommate being gone for the rest of the semester now, and just a ton of studying. I find it so hard to just rest and find some time with the Lord. Last week I was encouraged ot go on a "date with God", and I never did because I was SO busy. And not having that makes me feel even more drained and not prepared to live my life the way I should! So, please pray for that. I'm going to bed now, because I am out of fuel.

Crazy-ness

Okay, I know that is not a word, but I do say it!

This week has been full of crazy-ness. Tuesday night I stayed up until 4 AM writing my paper. I was probably insane at the time, but I am an overachiever at those things and like to get them done. It is such a relief when papers are finished. That was the crazy-ness of this week.

Other than that, it has been a pretty typical week. Yesterday I went out to the park with Cat, and we were reading and watching the turtle on a log. Don't you wish you could just sit on a log and look around at everything? Yeah, he was a pretty cool turtle. He divd in the water when we started talking about him. I think he may have gotten self-conscious.

I come home soon for Spring Break which is exciting. I think we are going to a Spurs game the Friday I come home, which is awesome! I am so excited about it. That and the 9 days I will be home. I love school, even when I have to study, but a break is just what I need!

My college minister, Trey, came up to me last night and asked meif I had a place to stay this summer. I think I will be living with his family or my adopted family, Jason and Shanon. That would be cool if I did! I'm so excited to see what God has planned. God has given me peace about it all, and I know He will do great things with it all!

Everyone have a good weekend!

Oh Bee-ly...

My friend Emily always says "Oh Billy...". She said that when she went to China this past summer, one of the women asked "What is 'Oh Bee-ly'? Is this an American thing?" and Emily replied, "No, it's an Emily thing." It makes me laugh!

Well, I have been doing the usual thing around here. Right now school consists of reading a book about a man named Isaac Tichenor and his influence on the New South. It's actually kind of boring... I noticed I only like history when it isn't in the U.S. Is that weird? I'm on page 103 now, of 203. Doing pretty good! The essay is due Wednesday morning... I have to persevere!

2 weeks until Spring Break. I'm happy!

Life is so fragile

Kristi Billington went to be with the Lord this morning at 10:05 a.m. Please be in prayer for her family, her best friend Holly who was driving at the time of the wreck, and our campus at this time.

Kristi Billington
December 12, 1986 - February 24, 2006

Believe Him....

I was at AWANAs last night, and I saw a binder in the sanctuary and it said "Believe in God", and I thought to myself, "Believe God, not just believe in Him". Lately I have been struggling with trusting God. It's way too easy for me to say that I trust Him, that I know He has things under control, but my heart hasn't truly done so. Last night at Cool Bean, I was talking about this with Lauren, and how I've come to realize this because of the situation with my dad leaving. I haven't been trusting in God and believing Him when he says he doesn't give us more than we can handle and that he has a plan to prosper us, not to harm us! It's just a thought...

I have been stressing all week about a test I was going to have on Tuesday, but our teacher has postponed it for atleast one more week, which I am so thankful for. The test will be over Galatians and 1 & 2 Thessalonians. This is a ton to cover. I will make good use of that extra week.

Please be in prayer for Kristi Billington. She was in a horrible car accident on Saturday night, and is now in critical condition in ICU. The doctors pretty much say there is nothing else they can do, and it will be a miracle if she survives. Please pray for her family, and her best friend, Holly, who was driving the car. Please pray for her friends are campus also, the whole campus has been shook up by it.

Well....

It's pretty late. I'm staying up tonight because I don't feel a bit tired, which is a rare thing. I got a third of my notecards down for Dr.Martin's class. It took me 3 hours, so I need to get in 6 hours tomorrow.

Tonight has been good. At our MLC meeting tonight, we talked about compassion, encouragement, and challenges. For me, it was very moving, because I was having an inner conflict during the whole thing, and I think that I am horrible at not letting anyone know. I don't like to tell everything about my life to 30 people, but tonight I felt the need to. I didn't. Could this be pride? I have no idea, but I should've. I've been having a really hard time lately dealing with my emotions. I'm serious. It all has to do with my dad's deployment. When I first found out about it, I was a wreck. Anything made me cry, and I let it. But now, I put up a wall against my emotions. Anytime I think about it or feel like I'm going to cry, I force myself not to. I don't like the way this feels, but I don't like to cry all the time either. I don't like blocking myself off from it, because all that is is numbing myself to feel. I'm not very content in this moment, because either way, it still bothers me. It still bothers me that he is leaving and that I won't be able to call him whenever. My dad is my friend, pretty much the only male in my life, which is not a bad thing, but when he is gone for over a year with very little communication, it feels like he is gone, and the fear of him being gone for the rest of my life is terrifying. The whole thing gets me upset, and all I truly desire is to be content and full assured that God will take care of me. I know He will, but I think not knowing the results is so hard, and that is just proof that I am not trusting that no matter what happens, God's got it all sorted out. I want to have a positive attitude and not start crying, or force myself not to, when someone asks about it. I want to be real and not have to block off what I truly feel. I started doing this because I don't want everyone knowing about it. I only tell a select few people because I am comfortable with them. I know that God has a plan. I hated it when my dad left in High School and even got mad at God. I don't want to do that this time. I want to be confident in Him and trusting. I think my biggest fear is that the one person I can talk to the easiest will be gone, and might even be gone forever. That is so hard to grasp and not question. It is so hard. I just want to go off to my own little corner of the world and express my pain by screaming, crying, and eventually smiling because God understands all of what I'm feeling. That's all.

Spring Break, Spring Break, where for art thou Spring Break?

Wow. You ever get that feeling when you look at your planner late and realize "Oh man. There's a ton of stuff to do in one week."? I did that last night. I have to read a 200 page book and write an essay on it by next Monday, and then I have this big test in Dr.Martin's class on Tuesday. The test is by far, more important. I only have 2 exams in there. ahhh! I can't worry, I can't worry.... It will be fine. 3 weeks until Spring Break!

So.... I got a new summer job. I haven't written it down yet because it hasn't really hit me that it's real yet. Maybe if I write it, it will. I'm going to be the Children's Ministry Intern here at my church in Temple. I totally had my mind set on Camp Buckner again, but God had another plan! This is definitely going to be a time of growth as I have never done something like this before, and might even be doing this when I graduate! My job this summer consists of:
1. Help in planning VBS.
2. Leading a weekly Bible Study for a group of children.
3. Plan different events for younger and older kids. (A trip to the zoo, the museum, etc.)
4. Help out with the Children's Choir.
5. Spend a week at camp with the kids.
6. Lead a Children's Ministry at the apartments.

I start late May-early June. I have a whole month off to spend with my mom. I will be living here with one of the ministers and their family or my adopted family from last year. Nothing is set in stone yet, but God will provide. I will also be babysitting here for the same family, which is cool because I won't miss out on anything. I'm super excited, but it wasn't until last week when I started to think of camp and how much I'll miss it, but it's okay. God has a plan and a reason for it all and I'm looking forward to getting to know the kids more! That is some pretty major news. God is amazing :)

Well, I had best get going to study some for all my stuff and read a bit, too.

~Krista

P.S.

Steph, not too sure about cutting my hair, you're right, boys do like long hair. Haha... just joking. I'm not sure what I'll do yet. It's severely damaged... so I guess I'll just have to wait and see what the stylist says.

Changing...

So I changed the template again. I like the blues in this one.

The roads are still icy and I will decide for sure whether or not I leave for home in the morning.

I sat here tonight. Rachel had gone home because she is sick, and all my other roomates were here in their rooms. Only, tonight I felt alone for some reason. I was thinking to myself, "I have no one to talk to." and then my phone rang. I love how God takes care of me sometimes, because Jennifer called and it was so nice to talk to her. She said she was thinking of me and decided to call. Don't you love it when God plans things to the minute?

Okay, I'd better get to bed. I have lots to do tomorrow.

A Cold Day!

Wow it is cold outside! I was planning on going shopping today for a cute skirt, but golly... It is freezing, and from what I hear, the roads are very slick, too. So, instead of doing those things, I've decided I want to stay inside, watch movies, read books, drink hot chocolate, and all the things you would do on a cold day. :) That's the upside o being inside.

School has been going great so far. I have become more motivated, and I think it's because of my first 2 exams. I needed to prepare for them, and so in doing so, I was kind of reminded of how fun it can be sometimes. That might sound really weird for me to say, but there's something about studying that is fun, and plus it makes me feel like I'm doing my job as a college student. I've looked forward to college for a while now, and to actually be here is a huge blessing.

Okay, just to throw in a random subject, I have finally decided on cutting my hair. I want to cut it right at my shoulders with a flip out kind of style, only with a face frame. I'll incorporate the "bangs" I have into that somehow... Back in October I got a really bad haircut, and I have uneven bangs now. But there's nothing my hair stylist back home can't conquer! So when I come home for Spring Break that's what I'm going to do. Get a haircut! It's so far away, but I'll post pictures when I get it.

Okay, off to be productive around the dorm!

All you have is who you are...

So, for some reason, these lyrics have been on my mind tonight. It's a song called Airplane, by Bethany Dillon.



"Mountain tops peak through
This is where I see you
I've never seen a clearer blue
This is where I see you

Leave behind your busy life
All you have is who you are
Space like this is hard to find
So breathe it in
Someone will say, "Where are you headed?"
And it might be the first time
You ever thought about it"

I think the reason these lyrics are in my mind is because I feel the need to just get away. I love the life God has given me but I seriously want to go somewhere, preferably outside, where I can sit, enjoy God's creation, and talk to Him. Let me tell you a story about my day...

I woke up extremely tired this morning and dreaded the thought of this day. (I know, what a thought to have..) I hate feeling this way, and I try to overcome it, but when I can't, I love it when God reminds me... breathe in and look around. Look where you are. I have been a bad leader and didn't prepare my lesson for Children's Ministry ahead of time because I was sooo busy all week. I know this is bad, but after today, it was a god thing. So, I got home from classes today and started looking for something I could teach on. No prayer, no nothing. Well, my Bible, and a couple of coloring sheets, but not what should've been. Well, I finally decided upon reading from my Bible Mark 12:28-34.

12:28
Then one of the scribes came, and having heard them reasoning together, perceiving that He had answered them well, asked Him, "Which is the first commandment of all?"
12:29
Jesus answered him, "The first of all the commandments is: 'Hear, O Israel, the Lord our God, the Lord is one.
12:30
And you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind, and with all your strength.' This is the first commandment.
12:31
And the second, like it, is this: 'You shall love your neighbor as yourself.' There is no other commandment greater than these."
12:32
So the scribe said to Him, "Well said, Teacher. You have spoken the truth, for there is one God, and there is no other but He.
12:33
And to love Him with all the heart, with all the understanding, with all the soul, and with all the strength, and to love one's neighbor as oneself, is more than all the whole burnt offerings and sacrifices."
12:34
Now when Jesus saw that he answered wisely, He said to him, "You are not far from the kingdom of God." But after that no one dared question Him.

I was reading this to the kids, and the words flowed from my mouth, the kids were listening, and really listening and God spoke to me through these words as I was reading them, and the kids started asking questions, and it was just a big reminder that no matter how busy I am, it is still my responsibilty in obedience and love to truly love God with everything in me, and that going to class, being diligent, leading a ministry, going to meetings, meeting my comittments, none of that will ever fulfill me like my Abba. All of these things are important, but "whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God." I picture Him, holding out His arms to me, saying "Calm down, come to me, and rest." and I'm too frantic and busy to even hear Him! Our God is an aweosome God, and I am so glad He is our God! I love that He reminds me of this constantly, because even after He shows me this, I still go on in my ways, and yet He taps me on my shoulder and says.. "Hey, just rest in my arms. I am here, and my love will never grow cold." No matter what happens in life, He is there.

So, these lyrics are true, all we have is who we are, and I am a daughter of our Father, and I can't forget that. I can't forget that in that I am to love Him and remain obedient, not get so caught up in temporary things.

Not OUR daughter...

So I finally figured out why I don't have a valentine. I know, I know, how do you figure this out? But I have written proof my friends. My parents sent me this card and it has an illustration of them blocking cupid from me saying, "Not our daughter you little flying freak!!" So, there ya have it. My parent's are just trying to protect me from cupid's sharp arrow! Haha juuuust kidding. Valentine's Day was good. I didn't sit around and feel sorry for myself. I actually stayed quite busy, and my "brothers" from my adopted family stopped by and gave me 2 yellow roses. A 3 year old and 7 year old gave me my first flowers ever (besides my parents). I thought it was the cutest thing ever! I just learned today that yellow rose means friendship! I love having friends. :)

Last night at one of my meetings, we were asking our BSM director, Shawn, all about her life. It was great! Someone ended up asking her about her singleness and she named everything I LOVE about being single. Seriously. For example, because of my singleness I am free to write my own calendar. I don't have to correlate my life with anyone else's. It's great. I can choose what "crazy things" I wish to do during my summers. It's awesome. Sometimes at the end of my day I wonder how in the world I could ever have a relationship right now. Seriously, I'm a very busy bee. But yes, I will stop because I have a lot more to say outside of this!

I was talking to Cat today and we were discussing the Old Testament. I was just telling her how lately I have felt convicted for not knowing a lot about the Old Testament and kind of skipping over it as if it had nothing good to say. Lately, we have been reading through Samuel together (which is a good illustration of the power of God) and it has been amazing. It's different from the New Testament and a little harder to understand, but I love it. I think I'm going to try to get through the Old Testament more now, because it is so cool to read and learn about what different things mean! A good example would be 1 Samuel 5. (Read it. You know you want to.)

Okay well I'm making dinner tonight so I'm going to go! I hope everyone has a blessed day!! :)

Valentine's Day... woo.

Valentine's Day is tomorrow. I am glad to say that while I have no "Valentine", my parents love me so much that they are sending me a gift. They are simply amazing and know exactly when I need to feel extra-special! I haven't gotten it yet, so I'm anxiously waiting for it. I wonder what it is.... :) I hope everyone has a great Valentine's Day! (And I do know of one boy who will tell me he loves me tomorrow... Who other than Nathan?- the best 3 year old boy in the world!)

P.S.
Baptist History tried to defeat me, and it failed. Muhaha...

So, I'm here...

I've been studying (with a joyful attitude) non-stop since Friday afternoon. I have a Baptist History test this Friday (my first one!) and there is a ton of information to know. All the way from the Luther to The Early Stuart Era. I'm happy to say that I'm confident I would pass if I took the test right now, but if you know me, I like to make A's, no matter what. So, we'll see how this goes. Sad thing is, I also have a Spanish test tomorrow, which I have paid NO attention to. So, I promise, I will start studying that as soon as I finish blogging. (Can you feel the procrastination?) Actually, studying Baptist History is interesting. It brings up a lot of questions and debates in class. One thing our professor, Dr.Holcomb, told us was this, "You might be smart, but it doesn't mean you're not wrong." I loved that!

Anyways, I'd better go study....

Song of Solomon Bible Study

So, this week has been good. A test got moved to next week and that's good because it gives me more time to study. I must admit, somtimes I feel like a complete idiot when it comes to Baptist History. I guess I have a weird way of thinking because whatever I say in that class, I am usually wrong. I will have to start keeping my mouth shut, which for me, isn't very healthy. I love to ask questions- even if they are wrong! How else do you learn? I just hate feeling like an idiot, and I have never felt like more of an idiot until this week.

Last night at FOCUS, our school's weekly Bible Study, we read more in the Song of Solomon. I have never been to a study on the Song of Solomon, this is the first! It is very interesting, shocking, and sometimes plain funny! Last night held a lot of laughs. We read through 3:6-5:1. The wedding night. I remember in High School Enlgish our teacher pretty much told us that book was all about sex, and nothing else. Um... no? I mean, it's a beautiful picture of two lovers speaking to eachother gently, and being honest with one another. One thing Chase pointed out is how Solomon talked to her: "Behold, you are beautiful, my love, behold, you are beautiful! Your eyes are doves behind your veil. Your hair is like a flock of goats leaping down the slopes of Gilead." -4:1 This is just an example, but wow, Solomon was complimenting his bride, and telling her gently, how beautiful she was. It's not like today, where beautiful has been replaced with "hot" or whatever.. Solomon's words weren't demeaning. Many examples of this would be on television, and even in some couples I know. The television is just an example to children who will one day be in relationships. It was a really good study, and I'm excited about the rest of the summer!

Okay, I'm gonna get ready for Children's Ministry :)

A God that comforts...

The Lord is good. He brings comfort to my heart through the people I love, in the midst of trials. He knows what hurts my heart, and picks me up again. He holds me in His arms and rocks me to sleep, wiping my tears away. I can't tell you how good He is, because it is beyond what I can say. He is giving me a hunger that I never want to leave me. He has blessed me through many things in my life, through trials and through joyful times. Our God is definitely an Awesome God. And I love Him.

He has comforted my aching heart today.

Cleanaholic - Me??

So, while attempting to get a lot of homework done today, I got a lot of cleaning done, instead. Now if you know me, you know that my home is (my real home) very clean, mainly because of my mom. Oh have I learned a lot from my mom. Either that, or I really didn't want to do homework. So, I'm in the middle of my Spanish workbook, when I suddenly have to use the restroom. So I go inside the bathroom and I just started cleaning! Wow, mom didn't even have to tell me to do it. Room check isn't even this week! So why am I motivated to clean, but not to study? I seriously need to get back into the swing of things. Isn't it funny that when you know you need to do something, but you really don't want to. It makes all the difference when you're doing something you actually want to do, but lately... That hasn't been the case. :(

I love my job!

I just got a raise last night. All the way from 6 to 7 dollars an hour for babysitting. That is a big difference! If you can't tell, I had no problem with that!

So I've come pretty far when it comes to crying babies. I used to panic and take offense quite easily, and even thought I'd be a horrible mother! But, alas, I have learned not to panic, and to try to figure out what's wrong. After all, babies are known to cry, no?

Last night, I was putting Anna down, and she is usually really good about that and falls right to sleep. Well, as I was changing her diaper before she went to bed last night, she started crying, and throwing things (she usually stops crying when you give her something to play with). So, I took her back out to the living room and gave her some juice to drink and she was fine. I let her look at the Teletubbies a little longer on the television, and put her down, and she was fine. You just have to find what she wants. She's really a great baby.

Nathan was good last night, too! When I came inside yesterday, he was eating dinner and I sat with him and his mom, and he turns to me and says, "I love you!" Yeah, that made my day! It was the cutest thing and it made me so happy. The rest of the night he watched Teletubbies while dressed as Po from Teletubbies. It was hilarious :)

So, I love my job.

Today I'm doing laundry and catching up on some homework. Here's to aiming for motivation!

Long week

Wo, I have ad a very long week. I think I might go nap it off. I'm babysitting tonight. That will be fun. It was a spontaneous thing for the couple, they siad they just wanted to go out to dinner. I think that is sooo cute!

So, if ya'll (you that read this) could please pray for me, that'd be great. I have a major decision to make within the next week regarding my summer job. I really had my mind set on camp, but something else has come into the picture. I don't want to say what that is unless I take the job. But it would be a really REALLY good job!

Okay, nap tiiiime.

Power Outage

So, after a great night at AWANAs, I come back to my dorm, call my parents in my closet AKA phone booth, and then the lights begin to flicker. It had been storming since AWANAs began, and I knew what was coming next. I'd say we had about 40 minutes or so of no power, and it was pretty cool! That's never happened at school, and with lack of anything else to do, we all went out in the hallway and talked at the top of the stairs. The light that was powered by the generators was in there, and it was neat to hang out with my roomies. We need to do that more.

So, one of my professors, Dr.Martin, is very sick. He hasn't been coming to class all week. I feel really bad for him because he's one of these teachers that puts so much into his lessons (He teaches New Testament, The Early Pauline Epistles, Greek, and probably more) and so he probably is upset that he'll be behind on them now. From what I hear, he has a reputation of NEVER missing class.

Anyways. Things are going good. Today is Children's Ministry, and I'm a little worrried about it only because Shawn told me today that a ton of people are coming from FYC. I really love volunteers, but wow- I'm not used to it! I'm sure it will be great, though.

:)

Charter Day

Today was Charter Day at UMHB (and I think Baylor, too). We had alumni from the class of 1929 speak today. They were so cute! They had actually witnessed the burning of Luther Memorial. All we have left now are the ruins which is a big spot on campus for major events. It was neat to see all that happened. They also laid flowers out at Judge Baylor's grave. I thought it was kind of creepy at first that we had his body casually placed in the middle of campus, but now it's some pretty neat history.

Tonight at AWANAs is Great Affliction night. We get to wear fake injuries. What's mine, you ask? I will be wrapping my head with toilet paper. It will look like a head injury! I would do something really gory, but the kids might get scared, so I shall stick to the toilet paper head. Maybe I'll show some pictures later..

Have you ever tried to go through a day without saying anything negative? I have been trying to do that, and have caught myself almost saying negative things. I'm not one for criticizing others, but negative speech can include many other things! You should try it for a day or more, because it's a good way to find out what is the root of negative speech. On that note, I found a good verse for this today, in 1 Samuel:

2:3
Talk no more so very proudly, let not arrogance come from your mouth; for the LORD is a God of knowledge, and by him actions are weighed.

Adieu my friends!